I have for the past one month been in a state of confusion. It’s like nothing seems to be making sense anymore. Everywhere I turn to seek clarity or think it’ll help make sense of things, it takes me back to the drawing board.

Things seem to be at a disarray, different thought bubbles popping up in my head at the same time and I don’t know which is which or if they’re right. I began a spiritual cleanse and have failed at that too. I keep restarting and retracing my steps until I finally get it right.

Trying to shed old habits and working towards a healthier path has been a lot more difficult than one can imagine. I have been thrown off in more ways than one which has me questioning a lot about myself. This has led me to remove myself from environments that are potential threats and can lead to temptation which may end up disrupting my journey.

I am trying to embark on a spiritual journey as mentioned before, one which will grant me clarity both emotionally and mentally and also strengthen the bond between God and I. It is difficult, so so difficult to the point where it is stressing me out but I don’t want to give up, I’m making progress no matter how small it may seem and I am not ready to throw it all away.

I seek clarity, purpose and understanding.