I visualize being on the phone as usual listening to him ramble on about any and everything, laughing at the silliest thing he says. I listen with intent, aiming to unravel the essence of the person on the other end of the phone- how he expresses himself, and what he thinks of the world 

This has now become a routine for me. Constantly awaiting for the revelation of what he truly wants to say, what his intentions are, and why all this attention. Yet, a shadow of doubt lingers on, perhaps I am overthinking everything, and things are not what they seem

The uncertainty of it does not stop the fantasy. If anything, it adds to the excitement as I get to create my own reality and navigate through the unknown waters  

The fantasy of being close and staring into each other’s eyes, feeling so close that I can sense his breath caressing my face, the traces of his fingers along my back. The warmth of his tight embrace, creating a desire for those moments to last